Gratitude Lists

• Fall colors
• Pesto
• Weekends off

  ¶ 9/30/2006 03:14:00 PM 8 comments

  What is a Site Meter
This is my site meter. It is located right under my links on my sidebar. Click on it and you can find out who has been visiting my Blog. Cool, huh!  ¶ 9/29/2006 01:33:00 PM 10 comments

  Food the Puritans Ate in 1600's Yes, some one found me by typing in(can you tell I am over 40), "food the puritans ate in 1600's." Yep, whose got the sexy Blog now?  ¶ 9/27/2006 04:41:00 PM 11 comments

  Six Degrees of Fame Kel's forty questions has started me on a self disclosure bender. So, I have a new question to tag all of you with. The question is, what famous (or near famous) people you have met?

When I was in college, I met William F. Buckley Jr. The year was 1985 or 1986 and I was drunk. Go figure! All I really remember is he had terrible teeth. I remember thinking, you are rich, go get them fixed. I was such a tolerant and accepting young woman in those days.  ¶ 9/25/2006 11:03:00 PM 19 comments

  Connecticut Welcomes You Image courtesy of My Left Nutmeg. I know I should not be political but, I just could not pass it up. It's way too close to November.  ¶ 9/25/2006 05:56:00 PM 5 comments

  Sexual Addiction Success Rate Four people actually found me by entering "sexual addiction sucess rate." Now if we could all spell, just think where we would be. Click here for the original post.

Can you tell I am home all day with a recovering 7 year old?  ¶ 9/25/2006 09:31:00 AM 12 comments

  Broken Fever Sam's fever broke over night and he is now pretty much back to his usual self. Now I am faced with a new dilemma, what to do with him all day while he continues to recuperate.  ¶ 9/25/2006 08:32:00 AM 3 comments

  Fever Sam has been running a fever now since about 2:00 p.m. Saturday. It is not very high right now(100.00) but, it has not gone away. So, we just watch and wait. Tylenol...Gatorade...Tylenol...Gatorade....  ¶ 9/24/2006 07:18:00 PM 9 comments

  Tag, I Am It 1. YOUR FULL NAME? Name Withheld

2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Yes, my maternal great great grandmother.

3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?Hmm...I am not sure

4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?Yes, my printing but, I have lost the ability to write long hand.

5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Roast beef

6. KIDS? Yes, one son

7. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Yes, I make me laugh

8. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL?Yes

9. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? Yes

10. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Nope

11. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? No, I am big "F"ing chicken

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Cheerios.

13. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Usually
14. ARE YOU STRONG? Physically no, mentally yes

15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? Peach

16. SHOE SIZE? 5 1/2 or 6

17. DO YOU LIKE RED OR PINK? Red

18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I grow hair in strange places

19. WHAT IS THE MOST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I have great eyes

20. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO PARTICIPATE THIS BACK TO YOU? Sure.

21. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING- Blue jeans and I have bare feet

22. LAST THING YOU ATE? Peach ice cream

23. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Nothing

24. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Royal Purple

25. FAVORITE SMELL? Bacon frying

26. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My husband

27. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO? Eyes

28.DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU? Yes

29.FAVE DRINKS-Coca Cola

30. FAVORITE SPORT? Reading

31. EYE COLOR? Blue

32. HAT SIZE? -Huh?

33. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Yes

34. FAVORITE FOOD? Pesto

35. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING? -Happy endings.

36. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED AT THE MOVIES? The Ant Bully

37. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? White.

38.SUMMER OR WINTER? -Summer

40. FAVORITE DESSERT? - Sour Patch Kids

41.WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Huh?

42. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Huh?

43. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Answered Prayers by Truman Capote

44. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? I do not have a mouse pad

45. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? My Name is Earl and The Office

46. FAVORITE SOUNDS? Running water

47. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? -Very early Rolling Stones

48. THE FARTHEST YOU'VE BEEN FROM HOME? Devil's Tower, WY (very weird and very cool)

49. WHAT'S YOUR SPECIAL TALENT? Making fresh pesto with my own basil

50. WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU BORN? -1963, Dubuque, Iowa.

51. WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?-Kel (well, I begged her)  ¶ 9/22/2006 07:30:00 AM 11 comments

  Gutter Update About 20 minutes into my gutter cleaning assignment, I fell off my ladder. To make matters worse everyone I had talked to earlier that morning said, "don't fall." I reassured everyone that I was not going to fall and that I knew what I was doing. After all, I am woman hear me roar. What ever happened to Helen Reddy anyway.

My injuries are nothing serious although, my hip still feels a little out of wack. Although, I did not finish the gutters, I did clean out the front hall and most of the shed. So all in all still a fairly productive day. Today I am working for pay, thank God, I don't think my body could take it.  ¶ 9/22/2006 05:34:00 AM 17 comments

  Shameless Search Engine Pandering I have a "day off" today and I get to clean sludge out of my gutters. I bet the search engines are going crazy now. My gutters filled with sludge are going to be right up there with Daave's Paris Hilton is a whore. Or how about sexy Asian blow jobs, OTK spanking or Dick Cheney.

Alright, I guess I should not write this post without taking my medication first. Back to my gutters, I am actually kind of looking forward to getting it done. I have been doing a lot if physical stuff around the house lately and it is a really good feeling. Oh I guess this is what my first sponsor meant when he said, move a muscle change a thought.  ¶ 9/21/2006 06:14:00 AM 10 comments

  Grace of God “By the Grace of God, good sponsorship, and the actions outlined in the Big Book, I haven’t found it necessary to take a drink since April 5, 1990.” Thank you, This Unmanagable Life!  ¶ 9/20/2006 08:00:00 AM 10 comments

  Sponsee Have you ever wanted to wring you sponsee's neck. I have one who is so busy "hiding" that fact that she is an alcoholic that she keeps drinking(and drinking and drinking).

Argggggggggghhhhhhh she is just like me and she drives me nuts.  ¶ 9/19/2006 02:37:00 PM 10 comments

  Gratitude List

1. Focus
2. A faith that works
3. Days off
4. Days working
5. New ideas
6. Willingness

  ¶ 9/18/2006 05:52:00 AM 10 comments

  Gratitude

• Time
• Fun
• Raspberries
• The next right thing

  ¶ 9/17/2006 07:46:00 PM 2 comments

  Right Living

"You can't think yourself into right living but, you can live yourself into right thinking." Charlie K

.  ¶ 9/15/2006 01:45:00 PM 15 comments

  Ann Richards Ann Richards, former Texas Governor and recovering alcoholic died on Wednesday.  ¶ 9/14/2006 04:51:00 PM 5 comments

  The Three M's of the Program

When I first sobered up, my sponsor used to talk to me about the "Three M's of The Program." You won't find this in any of the conference approved literature but, it was useful at the time. She said:

• If I wanted to drink or drug I should go to a meeting
• If I was feeling anxious or afraid I should meditate
• And if I wanted to get into a romantic relationship I should, well you get the idea

  ¶ 9/14/2006 06:24:00 AM 20 comments

  Bill Wilson's Best

"Sometimes, the good is the enemy of the best." Bill W

  ¶ 9/13/2006 06:39:00 PM 3 comments

  Emotional Closure This morning after I put my son on his school bus, I drove over to my A.A. club to see if my sponsor was around. Sure enough she was there all alone, just hanging out in the office. After about twenty minutes of small talk I was able to ask her point blank what was happening with “the relationship.” I know that was God because, I hate dealing directly with emotionally charged situations.

She told me few things and then I was able to finally express my concerns to her. The first time we discussed it took me so by surprise that I was not able to tell her how I felt. This time I was able to say things to her like,” you may drink over this” and other obvious things. She agreed with me and said she was going to end the relationship but, only after they go away together this weekend.

We will see what happens. But, at least I feel like I have said what I need to say. O.K. so now I will stop posting about it.  ¶ 9/12/2006 06:34:00 PM 15 comments

  Drop Kick Me Jesus Through The Goal Posts Of Life I am feeling much better. My feelings have changed although, my external circumstance have not changed. My sponsor is still going off the deep end(don't worry I am using my back up sponsor). I also have a sponsee who is seems to be on her way back out. She has stopped calling, stopped doing step work and has cut way back on her meetings.

What can I do about all this? Nothing! Nothing except work my own program. You know what we say, Let Go and Let God. And let my higher power drop kick me through the goal posts of life.  ¶ 9/12/2006 01:09:00 AM 10 comments

  Suri Cruise Man, that Suri Cruise kid has a lot of hair. Click here to see what I mean.  ¶ 9/10/2006 11:01:00 PM 6 comments

  Gratitude List

• My relationship with God
• Hearing what I needed to hear last night
• Chuck's safe return
• Much improved sleep
• The return of Sam's friend Stevon
• Freedom from people pleasing(at least some of the time)
• Daave for suggesting this gratitude list
• All my Blogger buddies

  ¶ 9/10/2006 02:29:00 AM 12 comments

  Creeping Dread and Impending Doom For the past few days, I have been dealing with these feelings of creeping dread and impending doom. I am not entirely sure where these feelings are coming from. I am however, sure of three things that might be impacting my emotions. First, for the past few weeks my allergies have been kicking my butt. As a result, my sleep has been inconsistent. Second, since summer is over it is time to get serious about getting a serious job. I feel so inadequate when it comes to a job search. Third, my sponsor is still going off the deep end. She is still involved with the married newcomer. Waiting for that relationship to blow-up is like waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Right now I am working on acceptance. Acceptance has always seemed to quell my fears in the past. My backup sponsor has me reading page 414 of the Big Book on a daily basis.  ¶ 9/08/2006 10:53:00 PM 11 comments

  Does Your Brain Ever Attack You? Does your brain ever attack you? Mine does! My life has been going along very well lately but, the better things go the more my brain attacks. It’s the usual chorus line of negative thoughts, self doubt and worry. There seems to be an inverse relationship somehow.  ¶ 9/07/2006 07:50:00 PM 14 comments

  Phil is Back Hey guys, Phil is back!  ¶ 9/07/2006 10:10:00 AM 10 comments

  Gratitude List

• A new school year
• Two great cars
• A new dryer arriving on Thursday

  ¶ 9/06/2006 06:41:00 AM 7 comments

  Steve Irwin Dead
Australian Crocodile Hunter, Steve Irwin died Monday from a stingray bite, while filming a wildlife documentary. Click here, for more.  ¶ 9/05/2006 11:49:00 AM 7 comments

  Labor Day The sun came out on Labor Day after all. I felt better, so we ended up going to Misquamicut State Beach. Lets hear it for Rhode Island! (Well, Rhode Island should really be part of Connecticut but, we won't go there).  ¶ 9/05/2006 05:48:00 AM 9 comments

  Rainy Labor Day Weekend I have been sick and it has been raining for most of the Labor Day Weekend. Yuck! We have all been climbing the walls.

I did however, get to watch a bunch of movies, including 28 Days.  ¶ 9/03/2006 09:24:00 PM 4 comments

  Gratitude List

• Acceptance
• Continued growth and willingness in Ellen (45 days sober)
• The unofficial start of Autumn, my favorite season
• New opportunities on the horizon(even if they scare me to death)
• Starting to write for the district Alcoholics Anonymous newsletter
• Getting back to church this weekend

  ¶ 9/01/2006 03:17:00 AM 12 comments