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Outright Mental Defective
Saturday, April 29, 2006
  Gratitude List
Friday, April 28, 2006
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
  Gratitude List

My Dad used to tell me that I was a smart ass. Well better a smart ass than a dumb one.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006
  Judas Speaks
Now here is an interesting Blog for the terminally irreverant like myself. It is called Judas Speaks.
Monday, April 24, 2006
You know that dryer that I was grateful for a few days ago? The sucker died on me tonight. The box looks fried so I don't know if we can fix it.

I guess being grateful is not a mojo against losing things. Yippee, Life on Life's Terms. Yahoo!
  Monday Morning Gratitude
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Sam's friends Stevon and Josh

"Give me liberty or give me more server space." Patrick Henry
Friday, April 21, 2006
  Friday Morning Gratitude
Thursday, April 20, 2006
  Gratitude List

Trolley rides and ice cream sandwiches
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
  Nathan Hale
"I regret that I have but one stamp to give for my country." Posted by Picasa

  Welcome Jackson
Welcome to Jackson fellow recovery Blogger. He found my Iowa City Tornados post. It seems we drank in the same Iowa City bars. If you have not meet him, why don't you stop by and say hello.
Monday, April 17, 2006
  Coffee Anyone
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  Gratitude List

Sunday, April 16, 2006
  1. A warm and sunny day
  2. A trip to Yankee Candle
  3. Stevon coming along with us yesterday
  4. Getting to know Amy better
  5. Easter Candy

Saturday, April 15, 2006
  Iowa City
I am trying to come up with a gratitude list but, I am a little distracted. Iowa City, where I got my undergraduate, was pummeled by tornados on Thursday.

Iowa City lives in my memory as this mythical place of youth and perpetual summer. I have not been there in 20 years but, I still look at these pictures trying to recognize something.
Friday, April 14, 2006
  Happy Helicopters

In honor of the Easter Bunny's arrival in the next 36 hours or so...here is some helicopter action for the kids.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
  Mental Defective
My oldest cousin died a few years ago leaving behind two grown children. Her oldest child "Stevie" is nearly 50 years old, has never held and job and still lives at home.

As you may have guessed, Stevie is alcoholic and may be shizophrenic or manic depressive as well. Who knows, his diagnosis a crapshoot. My cousin and her husband always refused any outside help for him. They had a "what happens in this house, stays in this house" mentality.

Whenever I talk to my Mom now she frequently tells me stories about Stevie. The stories are always about some whacked out thing Stevie did or said. At the end of her stories she says in an ominous tones, "you know he's mental." I always have to fight the urge to laugh really hard. A few times she has actually called him a mental defective, not an outright mental defective but a mental defective just the same. I think, "yes Mom, I know and so am I."

Wednesday, April 12, 2006
  Today's Gratitude
"Success is going from failure to failure without loss of
Winston Churchill

Thank you Dave for this quote! Today I am grateful for:

Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Monday, April 10, 2006

  1. Ned Flanders
  2. Warm weather
  3. Spring vacation approaching
  4. Coke
  5. Garlic

I am sure you guessed this but, I have decided to post a gratitude list for 21 solid days.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
  Martin Luther Blogger?

If Luther had Blogged would he have posted his 95 Theses rather than nailing them to the door of the Castle Church?

Today I am grateful for:

Another good nights sleep

A beautiful day


My home group tonight

Chuck, Sam and I are all in good health

My morning walk

Saturday, April 08, 2006
  21 Days of Gratitude
Friday, April 07, 2006
  Gratitude List
Thursday, April 06, 2006
  If Mary Todd Lincoln Blogged

If Mary Todd Lincoln had Blogged what would she have said? And would she have particpated in hAAlf nAAked ThursdAAy?
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
  Sobriety Date
Today is the anniversary of the last day that I woke up in detox wearing paper slippers. The report attached to the end of my bed stated that the day before had "ran away" from a 3/4 way house.

It really was not my intention to run away. That morning some of my colleges and I had gone off into the nearby woods to get loaded. We drank NyQuil purchased at a 7-Eleven a quarter mile away. Today, I am not sure if NyQuil was the only alcohol we could get or if we thought that we would not get caught if we drank cold medicine. Either way we did get caught and I got shipped off to detox and then off to yet another halfway house.

In that detox I really took the first step for the first time. In that fog, I had a moment of clarity. I realized that I needed to take the First Step "just for today." Whenever I let myself get beyond today my ego and my innate love of argument would kick in and I could talk myself into another drunk so fast it makes my head spin. But, I just for today, I could admit that I was powerless.

Today, I realize two things: first, that my moment of clarity had to come from God and second, I still need to work my steps one day at at time. Arrrrrrrgggggggghh, I have become one of those slogan people I always hated.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006
  New Helicopter?
What do you think? Should I buy or just lease?
Monday, April 03, 2006
  A.A. Bingo
My mother-in-law sent me the "game" below as an E-mail. It is very judgemental but, I must admit it made me laugh at least at myself.

Do you keep falling asleep in meetings? What about those long and boring using stories? Get tired of the same old Slogan.. Babble, or members who continue to deal with the same problems, same defects, and same painful relationships...FOR YEARS?

Here's a way to change all that..

Before your next meeting, prepare yourself by drawing a square. I find> that 5" x 5" is a good size. Divide the card into columns five across and five down. That will give you 25 one-inch squares.

Write one of the following word/phrases in each square:

  1. I Have Issues With ______.
  2. My Inner-Child...
  3. I Thought I Could Just Read Them Off The Wall, And That Was Enough.
  4. Meaningful Relationship
  5. It was just a small slip
  6. I'm Stuck On Step ____.
  7. I don't Really Believe In The Steps.
  8. Couldn't Find A Meeting
  9. My Sponsor Has Been Out Of Town
  10. I Don't Need A Sponsor
  11. Can't Change
  12. Won't Change
  13. Yeah But...
  14. Oh, The Pain!
  15. But, You Don't Understand
  16. I am just Misunderstood
  17. I'll Never Do ______.
  18. Rational Recovery Anything
  19. I am serching for the answers
  20. I'm Going To Do It Tomorrow.
  21. I've Been Thinking About Doing It Tomorrow
  22. But It Was Only Non-Alcoholic Beer
  23. I Know What It Is I Need To Do But
  24. Dysfunctional ANYTHING

Check off the appropriate block when you hear one of the words or phrases mentioned in the meeting. When you have checked off five consecutive boxes either horizontally, vertically, or diagonally, stand up and shout BULLSHIT!"

  Illness Update
I just went in to check on Sam and his fever seems to have broken. Hopefully I am not just imagining it like last time. It should be the real deal because, he has not had Tylenol in 7 hours.

The bad news in that yesterday morning, about this time, he started to have trouble breathing. His doctor called in a prescription as soon as pharmacy opened. At some point yesterday he also lost his voice. This is hard on him but not as scary.

Everyone is telling Chuck and I that we will probably come down with the 3-5 days of fever illness too. Sam has dress rehersal for the Easter play on Tuesday night. He already missed one practice because of illness. If he misses again, he might not be able to be in the play this year. I am praying that Sam and at least one of us parents will be well enough to go on Tuesday. I guess this is where I surrender Sam's life along with my own. I hate that part.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
I was wrong about Sam's fever breaking. It was just a temporary effect of the Motrin. He has now had a fever for something like 62 hours. His doctor said that this strain of the flu the fever can run up to 5 days. She told us not to bring him in unless his fever goes beyond that or he starts to have convulsions. I know she is right and the virus just has to run its course but, I still wanted to bring him in.

The doctor also said that this flu tends to run to the entire family before all is said and done. So right now I am over analyzing ever sensation in my body. Just another wonderful opportunity to surrender.
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