Mystic Pizza Well actually it is Mystic Aquarium, cool picture huh. We spent the day there. When we got home we found out that Vince, Chuck’s step father had died. It is sad but, truly a blessing. He had suffered so much especially in the last six months to a year.
¶ 12/26/2005 07:35:00 PM5 commentslinks to this post
Christmas Funk Gratitude List
So you know how I was earlier in the week? ....all joyful ...all God's got a plan and the plan is good. That went out the window yesterday. I worked yesterday and it went fine but, for some reason I just hated doing it. Then I got a rejection letter for a real job when I got home.
I woke up really early this morning and laid there thinking. Laying it bed thinking for long periods of time can be deadly. So I need to get out of my head and into action. So here goes:
Sam being so much fun this Christmas season
Having a lot of fun with Chuck lately
A possible Christmas trolley ride tonight
Christmas Eve is tomorrow
Not working today
A meeting to go to today
A God who loves me more than I can even perceive
The chance to have some really amazing adventures in my life
Yankee Candle Christmas candles
The package from L.L. Bean that came for Chuck and now is hidden in his closet
Seeing Alex with his one year chip the other day. Alex is one of those guys that you think well never be able to stay sober.
A Good Word with Santa
We use Vonage for our home phone. If you are a Vonage customer you can call *101 and talk to Santa or rather his voice mail. Sam has probably called Santa eight or nine times in the last week. Last night when he was getting ready to call he asked me if there was anything that he should ask Santa for on my behalf. I told him not to worry about it. "No Mom, really I will put in a good word for you with Santa, now what do you want," he answered.
¶ 12/21/2005 06:40:00 AM4 commentslinks to this post
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
I had a really crappy day substitute teaching. I swear to God the teachers were worse than the kids and the kids were horrible. When I got home I found a cooler of Omaha Steaks on my front porch. The steaks were from my mother in law. It really touched me. She is caring for her dying husband at home but, she took the time to send us a gift. To add to the miracle, when I got upstairs there was a message from a prospective employer wanting to interview me in early January. So my day was not so crappy after all.
¶ 12/20/2005 06:20:00 PM12 commentslinks to this post
Being at peace with myself
Being at peace with my financial situation
A wonderful boy to celebrate Christmas with
Having "enough" for Christmas
Beautiful snow(cold and annoying but beautiful)
Having hope on the job front
Chuck has a job he likes for the first time in the 13 years that I have known him
Today I drove almost two hours one way in stop and go traffic (glare ice accidents) to go to a job interview. When I got there I found out the job that was advertised being 20-30 minutes from my house was really located about an hour and half from my house. I know I live in the Northeast but, I am a big wimp about commuting. I also know that, "nothing happens in God's world by accident," but it seems like a huge waste of time right now.
¶ 12/14/2005 01:48:00 PM10 commentslinks to this post
Lately, I have been having some financial problems and I have been having a hard time feeling grateful. As my sponsors have always told me, I cannot think my way into right acting I can only act my way into right thinking." So here goes...
My family and I get to be volunteer Salvation Army bell ringers this Saturday at 8:00 a.m.
Our mortgage went down $200
I have a job interview tomorrow
My boy is in the Christmas program at church this weekend
Chuck likes his job and so far they seem to be good to their word
Happy Birthday Vince
My step father in law turns 85 today. He was diagnosed with stage four cancer about three years ago. Almost two years ago he was given “eighteen months at the outside,” to live. He was enjoying a fairly good quality of life until about six months ago when things really started to go down hill. Three weeks ago his doctor finally referred him to hospice care. On Sunday my husband learned that Vince had stopped eating and sleeps most of the time.
Vince has been a statistical anomaly most of his life. Raised by two deaf parents in the depression era Bronx the family managed to survive on his father’s meager earnings. Although he had normal hearing, doctors doubted that he would ever be able to talk normally because he was not exposed to human speech until he was five. Vince’s father was by all accounts a brutal alcoholic who was jealous of his son ability to hear and speak. In order to keep him from his father’s wrath his mother sent him to Jesuit High School. Rather than being a safe haven however, he was routinely beaten by the Jesuits.
Vince became alcoholic at a young age. Over the years he had many, many trips to “dry out.” His wife was also an alcoholic and they would often go to these drying out places together. On their last trip to dry out she died and he got sober. That was over 35 years ago.
Soon after he sobered up he was forced to retire from the post office or risk losing his pension He took the early retirement and threw himself into Alcoholics Anonymous. About a year later he met my mother in law at a meeting. “Love on the A.A. campus,” followed and he soon found himself married to a woman 17 years his junior with three young boys. As they say, the rest is history.
¶ 12/07/2005 04:46:00 AM9 commentslinks to this post
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Thank You for Asking
My job interview went fine, thank you for asking. My gut feeling is that it is not a job I want. I am however, going to pursue it like it is a job I want. That way it will either turn into a job I want or I will have practice for a job I really want.
I am feeling very blessed today for three reasons. First, I really enjoyed Sam’s birthday. While Sam was working hard in school, I got to go to the Thursday morning “As Bill Sees It” meeting. Before the meeting I even got to amuse some of my A.A. buddies with harrowing stories of Sam’s birth. At Sam’s request, we went to a Chinese restaurant for dinner. Then we all went to the Christmas tree lighting ceremony on our town green. There were Christmas carols and coco and Santa. Before you ask, yes I do live a Norman Rockwell painting.
Second, on the job front, things seem to be really looking up. After 3-4 years of a lack luster job market in my field, the market seems to be exploding. Yesterday, I got E-mailed about a potential second interview (a job I interviewed for the week before Thanksgiving) and I have a first round interview for another position on Monday. That’s right I got skills and (for the time being) they are in demand (fingers crossed). God is definitely moving and I try to stay humble and keep praying for his will.
The third reason that I feel really blessed is that we had an over $200 decrease in our monthly mortgage payment this month. It is long and uninteresting story about a tax levy that came due after we bought our house but, before the end of the year last year. The tax it turns out was temporary but, the reduction is permanent. Well permanent that is until the powers that be come up with another tax but, I will take it and be grateful.
Lost in Space
I have not been around because I have been having trouble with my internet. Our Norton Anti-Virus expired and when Chuck downloaded the update everything went nuts. So for almost 16 hours I did not have internet or phone(Vonage). Yeegads I was thrust back into the dark ages. Click here to see my hAAlf nAAked thursdAAy picture.
¶ 12/01/2005 08:23:00 AM3 commentslinks to this post
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