Mess Right now, I am a codependent mess.  ¶ 7/31/2008 12:32:00 PM 23 comments links to this post

  Gratitude

• Sam left for Cub Scout camp yesterday
• Chuck and I went to see Mama Mia
• The return of Mad Men
• Rain
• Sleep

  ¶ 7/28/2008 04:57:00 AM 6 comments links to this post

  Gratitude

• The progress on our rental unit
• Great weather
• Sam is at Cub Scout camp next week
• A good life

  ¶ 7/25/2008 05:06:00 PM 10 comments links to this post

  Eating Ourselves to Death I have a very good friend who is dying as a direct result of his addiction to food. He landed in the emergency room over the weekend, unable to breath. Yesterday the cardiologist told him that if he did not change his life style (diet, exercise and use of a CPAP machine) he could very well die in the next few years. He told me this dire prediction and then followed with, "but doctors always tell you your going to die." He said, trying to laugh the whole thing off.

Am I crazy? Do doctors always tell people they are going to die in the next few years if they do not do this or that? My doctor did tell me if I did not lower my cholesterol through diet (lets hear it for fish oil and oatmeal) she would have to put me on Lipator. I assumed that somewhere down the line I would be risking death but, she never said anything about a few years.

I hate watching people die from their addictions. I hate being powerless to stop it. I especially hate watching people I love die from their addictions. In my eighteen years in the rooms I have done far, far too much of it.  ¶ 7/22/2008 06:01:00 AM 5 comments links to this post

  Gratitude Our whole family was sick over the weekend. I hate when that happens. Some kind of virus we think. Anyhow today we all seem a whole lot better.

• Returning health
• A good night's sleep

  ¶ 7/21/2008 07:21:00 AM 4 comments links to this post

  My Will My will doesn't always work so well.  ¶ 7/20/2008 04:33:00 AM 1 comments links to this post

  Rebellion Right now, I don't want to do God's will, I want to do my will.  ¶ 7/17/2008 12:24:00 PM 5 comments links to this post

  Help Me! I am struggling with one of my sponsees. I love her dearly and I am as close to her as anyone I have ever sponsored. She just celebrated two years sober and I have sponsored her twenty months of those two years. In spite of all these good things, I am not sure I can go on sponsoring her.

Why do I want to end the relationship? At two year sober she continues to have unprotected sex with men she barely knows. She lines up men the way I used to line up glasses of wine. All the while she plays the happily married suburban wife to her highly successful but clueless husband. I have suggested therapy, Sex Addicts Anonymous and several other things to no avail.

I was taught in this program that you never fire a sponsee. That if you fire a sponsee it is too much about you and not enough about them. As much as I love her I really do not want to be standing next to the tracks when the inevitable train wreck happens. What should I do?  ¶ 7/13/2008 02:24:00 PM 9 comments links to this post