Death of an A.A. Meeting As much as I do not want to admit it, I think our Thursday women’s Big Book meeting may be dying. Attendance is way down. A couple of us started this meeting just last November and for a while we were getting six to ten women every week. The past couple of months however, we are lucky to get three.

A long time ago, an old timer told me that if I started a meeting I had to commit to it for a year. So, I committed to it for a year but now the year is almost up. Lately I been feeling like I am single handedly propping up a meeting that otherwise would have disbanded. I have to ask myself how much of this is about doing God’s will and how much of it is about my ego. You know the, “damn it I will make this meeting work” syndrome.

I should ask my sponsor about this but I think when we hit a year I am going to quietly back off. I will still attend on a regular basis but I am not going to be the one to always be there. I am sad about it but it should not be “Trudge’s meeting” meeting like it seems to be now.  ¶ 9/19/2007 05:56:00 AM