Keep writing.
 

Writing is good. Getting it outside of our heads: meetings, talking to others in the fellowship, writing...
 

Why afraid? Call someone, that usually helps!
 

Cool. I always find feelings can intensify quite sharply following a retreat. while it's not entirely pleasant!! I actually see it as a good sign. takes a bit of getting used to though! I'm sure theres a good reason for this shift. unless of course you are in a real live position of imminent threat, in which case, it isnt! just do whatever makes you feel 'taken care of'. meetings, whatever. and it'll pass faster rather than slower. ignore this if it goes against your ideology, but i'm always amazed at how quickly strong emotions are neutralised by doing the Taoist Arch. I've often used it at work if theres some sort of problem underfoot. i just nip in to the ladies, and do it in there! not while anyone else is using them because that really would be just plain weird! .. as if life wasn't weird enough! hope you feel better soon, however you decide to work it out..
 

you are being a bit mysterious, i hope all turns out well. You know where to turn, I know you do...
 

It's been one of those days for me too, Trudge. I am just finishing up a panic attack. I hope we both feel better soon.
 

I suspect that you were afraid of not posting something today.
Well now, ain't this better?
 

eeeee. I hate it when that happens. This too shall pass.
 

I call that the unreal real fear. The one that I just can't put my finger on.
 

keep writing, we're reading
 

just remember this too shall pass... I know sometimes knowing that helps me, and sometimes when I am told that...I think not fast enough lol
sending good thoughts your way Trudge