I Am Depressed I am depressed. There I said it. I finally realized it last night. I realized years ago that like Bill W., I am of "the depressant type." I had to stop taking my anti-depressants a few months ago because we lost our insurance coverage. The medication costs something like $225 on the open market. I think lack of medication and some other issues have brought another bought on. These other issues are outside of my control but of course I am trying to control them.

So when I finally realized what was going on I called a friend in the program and told on myself. Then I dug through my closet and found what was left of my last prescription and a sample bottle I had. Between the left over prescription and samples I came up with about 2 weeks worth of pills. The insurance kicks in tomorrow and so I will put a call into my doctor then.

My faith in God really waivers at times like this. I have a hard time seeing the miracles. No that's not really it, I can still see the miracles I just don't feel them. Its kind of opposite of having a dentist drill your teeth after a shot. You know the pain is there you just don't feel it.  ¶ 7/31/2005 05:28:00 AM