What a Difference a Day Makes Thanks to everyone who commented on yesterday's post. I did talk about it at a meeting and I feel much better. As Higher Powered suggested, I did find several people who offered there own Experience Strength and Hope. I have prayed about the debt a million times but I never thought I should apply the 12 steps to it. The crux of the issue seems to be my ego and my pride. Whenever I would start down the 12 step road I would say to myself, "I am innocent,I deserve to go to graduate school as much as the next guy." This would quickly be followed by"I am as smart as the next guy, I should have the same chances"

The truth is a lot of the reason I went to graduate school was to prove I was smart to the world. I have a learning disability and as a kid hated having to go to special ed or as my peers called it "retard school." I hated being patronized by adults who gave me beauty school brochures when everyone else got college catalogs. O.K. I am exaggerating a little with that last statement, but you get the idea.

Today I am grateful that people were there to listen when I was ready to talk.  ¶ 6/22/2005 04:58:00 AM