Loneliness
Alcoholism was a lonely business even though we were surrounded by people who loved us. Twelve and Twelve page 116.
The details of our drinking careers vary. Some of us started drinking in middle school others not until their thirties. Some met their bottoms literally on the streets others met theirs behind the fortified doors of middle class suburbia. One of the things we all seem to share however, is a profound sense of loneliness even if we were the boisterous center of a noisy crowd. Try mentioning loneliness at the next 12 step meeting you go to and see the reaction you get.