Our Own Skin For many of us The Program was where we learned, often for the very fist time, to live in our own skin. Some of us never wanted to be ourselves. From our earliest memories, we wanted to live somewhere else, do something else and be someone else. Often this flight from reality started long before we ever tasted alcohol. Alcohol however, added fuel to our escape. No matter what people told us the next day, we were convinced that we sounded better, looked better and felt better after “a few” drinks. When we hit our bottom and had to stop or die, we could no longer rely on a drink to help ease ourselves into our own existence. So we reemerged in our own skin whether we wanted to or not. At first it often can be hard to feel through the fog but eventually we have to face life as ourselves without the narcotic affects of alcohol. This can at times be a painful place. If we are diligent in our program in other words, if we clean house, find God and help others we will begin to recover and in recovery we become alright with ourselves. We learn often joyfully to face life as ourselves just for today.  ¶ 4/15/2005 06:59:00 AM